Summertime Happenings

To be honest i can not believe we are in August already. It doesn't seem possible. So my dear friends this is what i have been up to this incredible summer. May Started out with the Susan G Komen Walk for the Cure. It was an amazing walk with my mom, Alicia, Jean, Sara, and Curt. It was made very special that all 4 of us kids were able to do this with my mom who is a breast cancer survivor! We also walked in memory of 3 incredible fighters Sue Voges, Katie Voges and Marilyn Walters. Sue was definately on my mind the entire day. We love and miss you so much Sue!

There was approximately 20,000 people who turned out for this walk. It was a very emotional day. Mom had made us t-shirts with butterflies flying to heaven in honor of Sue. Sue had picked out butterflies for the covers of her programs for her funeral. Sue had also picked the music for her funeral and one of the songs she chose was Melissa Etheridge Run for life. Every year at the run walk they chose a song to dedicate to all the survivors and this year they chose Run for Life. I almost lost it at that moment.

This summer also brought a new record for me in my recovery from eating disorders. I made it 5 1/2 months without using symptoms before i had bump in the road. I am slowly getting myself back on the road. Which has not been easy. I was quite upset with myself for going back to using symptoms. And every time i go back it just makes it alot harder to stop. But i am stopping. I will fight this and win. The eating disorder won't win. My anxiety has been awful. I feel anxious pretty much every time i eat for a couple of hours afterwards. And sometimes i wonder if all this anxiety will ever stop. I also haven't been able to sleep through the night in months. Most of the time i fall asleep pretty easily. i just can't stay asleep. i will sleep 2-3 hours and then wake up toss and turn fall back asleep and repeat in an hour or 2. I have had some really bad nights of waking up every hour. and feeling yep you guessed it anxious.

This summer has brought a new job for me!!! I am finishing up my last week of orientation as a Lactation Consultant!!! I will work one day a week in the breastfeeding clinic and then work the other 2 days a week in postpartum and newborn nursery. So far i absolutely love the clinic. I love being able to continue helping the moms i see in the hospital. I also love seeing how much the babies continue to change in their first few weeks of life. It is truly an amazing job in helping these new mamas gain confidence in feeding their new baby.

The summer has also brought my favorite activity of swimming and summertime BBQs with good friends. We are all so busy that we definately don't get together as much as we should. And when we do it is wonderful. i just wish it lasted longer.

Hope you all are having a wonderful summer!