15 years

15 years ago today Jonthon and Richard died. We were only 14. I remember it was a Tuesday. (or at least i think it was a Tuesday) We had just been to freshman orientation that morning. That evening i went to marching band practice with my sisters. I remember walking up to the high school gym and thought it was strange that there was no one there but a teacher. Then we were told the awful news. There had been a bad car accident that afternoon. Jonathon and Richard were in it. Richard had already been pronounced dead. Jonathon was on life support. I immediately started praying that Jonathon would be okay. But by the time i had found out about it he was already gone. I mean we were only 14 how could this be happening? This wasn't supposed to happen. We were supposed to start high school next week. I had been in school with them since kindergarden. My locker was between them for a lot of grade school. Richard was only 1 week younger than me. We spent lots of recesses playing kickball. They were really good at it. I sucked but i didn't care. I was in shock. Their funeral was in the middle school gym. I went in shock. I don't even remember crying. i just kept thinking how could this happen? i had just seen them a few hours before. I heard the sirens of the ambulance and police coming for them. How could they be gone.

15 years later and it still hurts that they are gone. I thought of them the day that we started high school. Everyday that i walked by their lockers and saw the signs of how we missed them. The memorial in our year book for them. I thought of them the day we graduated from high school and at our 10 year high school reunion in November. And lots of days in between. It was so strange not to see them at school. I mean i had seen them every day from kindergarden through 8th grade. I can't believe that they have been gone 15 years.

Miss you tons jonathon and richard.